Hey everyone, just wanted to let you know that I'll be performing in a cabaret on February 23rd! So I'll be doing two songs and it starts at 7:00 (doors open at 6:30). It's at the "Don't Tell Mama" on 46th between 8th & 9th. Hope some of you who're from the NYC area can make it! Tickets are $12 (+2 for drinks). If you come, say you're there to see Caroline at the front door. Thank you!!!!!!
Reserve tickets here.
Here's some pictures of some fun times in the summer. The cold makes me nostalgic.
I HATE TO WISH THE TIME AWAY BUT I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR SUMMER, AND THE POOL DAYS, AND SMORES, AND POLAROIDS OF PANCAKES, AND LATE NIGHT TALKS ON TRAMPOLINE, AND THE SIGHT OF THE OCEAN AND UGHHHHHHHHH.
I'M SO. HAPPY. IT'S. OVER.
So I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm the biggest dumb ass I've ever met.
I wish I was joking.
1. TUESDAY: I had Global. I've never been too bad at global. John Green get's me through it. (If you don't watch Crash Course whilst studying, you've been doing it wrong the whole time). So my teacher makes a review sheet thats just about 16 pages. (I wouldn't consider that a review sheet, more like all of our notes from the first semester to now). We asked him numerous times to shorten it or at least let us know a little specific general units that are going to be on it. My teacher wouldn't budge, so instead I memorized five pages about the fricken Chinese Dynasties when there were 3 questions. So I was completely underprepared basically. It's not my fault I can't remember over 1,000's of years. Sorry.
2. WEDNESDAY: Italian. Not aweful, but not good. You know when someone says 'omg it's like reading another language;? This was like that (LITERALLY), but in the way that I'm suppose to know the language. But the things I know perfectly are: Posso andare al bagno/ Non capisco.
3. THURSDAY: Math and Science. For math, I've never been good but I finally felt confident until I saw the test and forgot what math was. I'm not even joking, I couldn't remember a single equation, or way to use my calculator other than addition or subtraction.
These were just some of the things running through my head while taking it; I am in this class? Have a written or digested a single thing my teacher said this year? Do I even know what Living Environment is? 'This is the easiest science class you'll take', they said. I'll be lucky if I get a 40%.
4. FRIDAY: First I had my sight singing final. I was confident because I had been practicing a lot. Then I got called up to read a piece of sheet music and I don't know what went wrong. I got so nervous I literally couldn't see the page.
My vocal final was the worst one I ever did, (I had to sing a classical Italian opera song), but it could've gone worse. I think it was just not good because I was so exhuasted from this whole week.
Well, there's always next year, right? Ugh, there's next year too.
*Took away the Manhattan, just in case I go to a good restaurant somewhere else in the tri-state area*
At this restaurant I literally had one of the best meals I ever had. It's a steak house on 50th in Midtown. I got a blackened salmon caesar salad (it's kind of my go-to meal). The salmon was the best I ever had, so thick and flavorful (but I could barely finish it). The best part though, was dessert. We ordered the flourless chocolate cake with raspberry sauce, which was so rich that you only needed one bite. It was basically fudge). We also got the 7 layer chocolate cake. One slice was enough for six people to share. The cake was literal bliss.
It was. The best. Cake. I. Ever. Had.
If your going to a broadway show or wanna do something really nice for someone's birthday, take them to the Palm. The food is worth every dollar.
I go to a school where the arts are embraced and for at least two periods a day, kids get to do what they love. You walk in and you just feel a great vibe. This week it was the opposite; kids crying in the halls, the emotionally exhausted looks on their faces. This is because on Tuesday night, a sophomore vocal major committed suicide. I didn't know her, but I have friends and teachers that knew her very well, and they're devastated. The school has brought in grief councilors, but i've seen comforting go on that they could never do. Specifically the girl's chorus that she was in. I knew they were close, but this week I've seen them push through this like a family; crying together and constantly hugging each other. She was in my locker section, and I saw someone have a box of tissues taped to their locker with a note that just said "Blessings.". I think by 8th period, all the tissues were gone. Who ever did that set the trend of going the extra mile of being supportive, and now at least five lockers have them, one with a cup of Q-tips with a note that says "in case your make-up runs". I have never seen such support from so many different people.
I don't know what was going on in her life or why she took her own, but I sure do know how many people are grieving over her loss. I wish she would've known how much people loved her.
Rest in peace.
My friend, Brynne, got my best friend, Jade, and I tickets to see 'Fiddler on the Roof' on Broadway, and it was really great. I'm not the biggest fan of the movie, so I was so impressed. Tevye was outstanding and hysterical, while also making me cry when he disowns his daughter. The cast seemed like it was small, which makes you develop a closer relationship between the audience and the performer. The minimal amount of sets and the simple dances (they're obviously hard, but the actors make it look easy) really make you focus on the content of the story and also sets the tone of the time period. I really enjoyed this musical so much! Thanks Brynne for the tickets!
My sister and my mom and I made these cute little cupcakes for a New Years Eve party I went to. I found the design on Pinterest and they're not as easy as they looked. It was literally like an episode of Cupcake Wars in my kitchen with my mom screaming at me for my poor penmanship/poor icing skills (I don't do well under pressure). We used regular chocolate mix, vanilla icing, red sprinkles (we didn't have gold), and a half an Oreo for the clocks and used black icing and a tooth pick to write the numbers.
Sooooooo one of my resolutions is to become a better baker. Happy New Year!
Every year around Christmas time, I see an opera with my grandma. For 4 years, it's been one of my favorite traditions. This year the Met was having an opera I loved that I saw a couple years ago; Die Fledermaus (de-flay-der-mouse) on a day that my family could go. This is actually an operetta (a short opera, usually on a light or humorous theme and typically having spoken dialogue). My grandma and I wanted to bring my sister, who had a bad first opera experience last year when we saw Hansel & Gretel (it was terrible), so this would be a good one to try and impress her again with. My mom had never seen an opera before, and this one made a great first impression.
Die Fledermaus is basically about the stories of three linked characters who get an invitation (which is part of a secret revenge plot) to Prince Orlofsky's New Years Eve ball, which being thrown in the year of 1899 in Vienna. What is planned to happen at the ball is suppose to end people's relationships and cause chaos, but it ends up bringing them closer together. The operetta is witty and had my family and I laughing out loud. The best part, was an actor who plays Frosch, a tipsy jailer, coming off the stage and doing improv. You know its improv, because at the Met, there are little screens that have the lines or English subtitles for you to read, and when he came on they went blank. He was the funniest part of the show, talking to the prompt (someone who cues the actor or whispers there line, just in case) in the middle of the show. My favorite singer in the show was the woman who played Adele the chambermaid, Lucy Crowe. Her voice was beautiful and strong, and she was also one of my favorite characters.
If you want to see an opera and you're not the opera type, this is the one to see first. It's hysterical, all in English, easy to understand, and very interactive. Plus, the singing is awesome and the sets are beautiful. Overall, Die Fledermaus is a great time for all.
So this time last year I was about 30 pounds heavier and I felt terrible about myself. I was always really self conscious and I just hated the way I looked. I was also unhealthy and as much as I tried eating healthy, I gave up too soon and nothing was really working for me. I would go a very long time without eating, and then eat junk food later on and say to myself "Well, I didn't eat all day, so I could eat whatever I want now...", which was how I gained even more weight. I was always on the chubbier side, but I knew there was a problem when I was gaining weight in the summertime, when usually people lose it. My old "friends" also treated me like I had a disease, like I was an outsider because I was heavier than them. I come from a family that doesn't like to waste anything and always reminded me that people are starving, and my "friends" would purposely throw out a good amount of food in front of me, and I would be like "well if you're just gonna throw it away, can I have some?" and they would look at me like I had asked to eat their first born. They made me feel terrible, and as much as it killed me, I just told myself "it's not my problem" when they threw out a whole lunch. They created a new insecurity and I think that there's still a part of me thats utterly terrified of being the fat girl again (new school). Anyway, eating the way I did made me lethargic and I could barely exercise because I had no energy. So what made me change? Well, my unhappiness with my reflection led to a small (okay, huge) meltdown and I decided that I was done with feeling bad. I decided to lose the weight and get healthy and it made a huge difference and in the first two months I lost 20 pounds. Some people asked me what I did, and I told them: I cut out carbs (haven't had pasta or pizza since June), had GNC meal replacement shakes for lunch, didn't let myself snack unless it was fruit, had at least 8 glasses of water, and worked out 3 times a day. Eating like this gave me so much energy, that working out didn't tire me out as much. Also, exercise got so much of my stress out and I actually got addicted. As I got busier though, this became harder because I didn't have as much time to exercise. So I just stuck to my main rules and only worked out 4 days a week. Now that the holidays are over though, I need to get back to my original diet plan, because Christmas came with way too many treats. I obviously still have a little more ways to go to reach my goal, but I'm really happy I decided to change myself and I'm proud of what I've accomplished so far😊
If you're dealing with the same issue, or any issue for that matter, and someone tells you can't, it's only because they couldn't. I know I always say this, but you can be the change you want to see, no matter what the situation. Don't waste your time feeling bad.
Just because this way worked for me, doesn't mean it works the same for everyone else! Everyone's body is different, and the best way to see what works for you is testing out what foods make you feel what and what exercises work the fastest. Thanks for listening to my story. I can't wait to see what 2016 has to add to it:)
Feminist, singer, writer, animal lover, actress, fashionista, tv junkie, shark enthusiast, wanderer, music lover, New Yorker, and most of all, human.